Friday, June 27, 2008
Another Random Entry
NOTHING: I'm running out of things to do. Is this the price I have to pay for not having a job? Ok, I know doing nothing is one of the greatest things one can do (why is there something instead of nothing). When I say I'm doing nothing, what I mean is I'm not really doing nothing but, that nothing is something that I am doing. When you say there in nothing then there is something!!! This is how random and crappy my mind works right now.
10FACTS: I was supposed to post the ten-facts-about-me thingy, but I'm still polishing things up. That post will really be bongga! If I will be able to post it at all.
REASONS: So why am I blogging? I don't really know. I have already watched new videos from all my youtube subscriptions. I have checked my email, my friendster account, my multiply account, my youtube account, my imeem account, and that's it. Right now I'm just running out of things to do.
YOUTUBE: I still don't want to sleep. Tatay is still awake, secretly peeking at what I'm doing. It pisses me off! Anyway, I watched happyslip's new video. It was great! I watched another video teaching the happyslip-cup-beat! I already know how to do it! It is such an accomplishmet. I want my father to go to bed first! I still don't wanna sleep yet. I should really lessen those siestas.
MUSH-MUSH: My
previous post was really nothing. I just want to share that cool video I found. The creator has more cool vids, you can visit his youtube channel
here. ok! Somehow, I was able to relate to that video, but I have gotten over that stage. I know my downfalls, my shortcomings, my faults, as well as hers. I'll be man enough and take all the blame. Right now it's as if we live in two different worlds. It's as if we don't know each other. It's as if we were blinded and unable to see one another. This is better; I'm coping with the situation well.
FIREFOX3: We're now using FIREFOX3! I don't think it's different from the previous version. Well, they changed some little things on the appearance of the browser, and I guess that's it. After performing unbelievably well, our internet connection is again back to it's normal, crappy self. Connection drops in about every ten minutes. Before, when this happens I have to restart everything when I'm downloading something, but I noticed that with the new FIREFOX3, downloading or uploading something resumes even after the i-connection drops! Amazingly amazing.
EXERCISE: Tatay is making me laugh (secretly). He is doing some funny exercises right now. I think he is preparing for something. Hahaha! Now he already went inside their room. He just finished the late news pala! Ahahaha.
DONE: I have nothing more to say...
Naantok na rin ako...
Tulog na nga ko...
Pogssz
1:12 PM |
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Published Somewhere
What happened?
Uncontrollable circumstances and factors dictated and caused these things to happen. I thought I was in control of the situation, but I was wrong.
Looking back, I thought, we were just at our usual "avoiding phase." I thought there was nothing serious to get worried about, but I was wrong-- I was terribly wrong.
I gave you space, more room for you to move; this, for me, was what you needed, and again, I was wrong. It was rather what I wanted. I don't want my happiness to be based on something or someone, and this was slowly happening to me. I depended on you too much. To make things worse, people see us as one entity; we lost our individuality-- one can never be happy without the other, one should be beside the other to find comfort and happiness. I dread for these things to happen. I had to take action, and moving away from you was my best option: my last resort.
My action took its toll. No problem was solved. We moved further, away from each other. And to top it all, you became mad at me. Rumors grew, speculations were made, and you believed on them all; without even trying to consult me. I was badmouthed; issues were made about what happened to us. But I'm taking a firm stand, and I believe to none of those. We should know better; I trusted you to believe on me, but I was wrong.
Things already got worse between the two of us. I made the first move to clear things out, but your mind was already made up. That was all I can do.
Just when things are starting to fall into their right places, I realized that nothing was really right. Everything was a disaster, and we can do nothing about that. I don't regret the wonderful (and even the awful) things that happened when we were together, but its time to take the first step to moving on. We need not to say our goodbyes and lock our doors; I'm keeping mine open.
I will not say goodbye but goodnight. Take a rest; we both need it. When we wake up, our minds will be cleared, ready to make more noble decisions. Right now, we cannot just let our emotions dictate our actions. Goodnight my sleeping beauty; It saddens me that it is not my kiss that woke you up, but it has rather put you to sleep.
***keso!!!
Pogssz
11:55 AM |